From “The World After Rain,” II: Twice Awake

Canisia Lubrin

*


the hour is thick, our tables full, our fields long again with cane

             some sunny day you’ll offer me the laughter

of your life and I, heavy with moonwash

             moving like smoke into your door, across

that amphibious plantation, will meet you crosswise,

             Anne, with a summons: our seditious peace from the flood

from here invent a different biomass for goodness

             because I have not understood your brief,

sprouting faiths, and I should say, this is this, not that


who can hope, bright as green, for such endings

             and who could say, after this is a reward for all your waiting

if the poem must close, if hollow things must float

             if some might say, after this wilting, you must be mad to write

any poem at all, Anne,

             could your own fig tree be counted

as if a leaf, a stanza, and drown-proof as rain

             in our split genealogies debated into somebody’s lost and found

come reprise these shellfire people aging in all our pages


*


gathered life, I remember no night watchman:

             just our laughter drained into a stormed volt,

my wrench thrown at death

             hiding in the carcass of an old boat

my head: a menagerie for every basin’s data pool

             I come back bearing the gift of empty hands

and repentance, marked with godloss,

             this fumbling law of the dead

I imagine the cocking noise of scalpels

             falling into metal cans, and your surefire hands cooling, 

Anne, slowing all the wild herds of compromise,

             Kneading your one-hundred-pound bags of flour


by hand, by heart, every Saturday, 5:00 a.m. until midnight

             listening for the first woman with the blaring

pockets or hands of her own practiced on the hazards of silent use

             conveyed with the basic mathematics of asking for miracles 

when the miracle feels like theft; the years never gave


what the years never gave and never

             mind the logic, the circles it must make, I’ll make of logic 

whatever; I’ll make of logic,

             the sky and its mute thunder; I’ll make the days,

as my father made the garden, the gardener

             tending the vast spaces from headstone to headstone 

ringing the Sunday bell, my mother

             was cloud, was rain, swapping places


with the street parking, lessening new blues, time—auctioned

             I remember things but not what my mother said 

who said two years; who said cancer

             the way death makes sense of nothing, not even

the scattered planes; I remember nothing

             my mother has said, listening all night to the rain, I see everything:

eyes, daggers, mouths, Anne, I’m as eager as sugar in the blood


This excerpt is drawn from a book-length elegy for my mother, Anne, to celebrate her life of quiet astonishment.
Canisia Lubrin is a writer, an editor, and a professor. Her books include Code Noir, The Dyzgraphxst, and The World After Rain. Among her honors are a Windham–Campbell Prize, an OCM Bocas Prize for Caribbean Literature, a Griffin Poetry Prize, and the 2025 Carol Shields Prize. She was born in Saint Lucia and lives in Whitby, Ontario.
Originally published:
September 8, 2025

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