I put the rat into my mouth and let
The satisfaction of a job
Well done cart me into bliss like plunged
Into a coal mine now cold
Water fills in nature’s reclamation of
The agonized lost here for fuel.
The rat need not know how to swim,
Exploring safely in my thigh.
The flex of meat I imagine comic
From inside as I kick about
In dark that seems a double dark,
Which I confess I fain prepared for,
Wishing it be so, by plucking out
My useless eyes a week ago.
Can the rat see me from inside of me?
Have I forgotten something
That could pry it free? The pickaxe handle
Adored my grasp, and I feel that
I did justice to its grip which held
My grandpap’s fingerprints in black
Smudges in the thirsty veins of ash.
I wish I could have been a tree splintered
After one thousand years alive.
This country was a grand experiment.