My Father’s Locker

James Ciano

It was so big a body could fit inside, two bodies, even.

The blue doors opened like an armoire’s, and inside

a whistle hung from a red lanyard. There was a single

gray T-shirt with a hole where the tag should’ve been,

and when he hung it, the T-shirt, it was like passing

a hook through the mouth of a fish. Bolt cutters

and a bag of footballs smooth as polished boots.

Inside the right door was a photo—two facing pages

torn from a magazine and taped down the middle.

In full-bleed high resolution was a man in the moment

he is tackled at the knee, so his knee disappears, the leg

no longer a leg but bowed like a parenthesis,

the impact of the helmet as it shattered the limb past

the body’s understanding of pain, past the ecstatic,

the stadium light shimmering in the drops of sweat

on the man’s forehead, none of them falling but held

in place on the door of my father’s locker. No photos

of us. A Popeye cartoon cut from The Post, a mirror

for combing his hair, and this photo that he looked at

each day before washing his hands and walking the stairs

up to the empty gymnasium.


Describe one formal realization or change you made during the writing of the poem.


My father was a high school PE teacher and coach in Ridgewood, Queens, for thirty years. Every so often when I was younger, I would go with him to practices on Saturday mornings. I was reading a lot of Stanley Plumly when I wrote the first draft of this poem, especially Out-of-the-Body Travel. For a long time, it was in very short couplets, which ultimately felt too porous for a poem that sought to unlock this deeply private and unknowable space.

James Ciano is the 2025–2027 Creative Writing Fellow in Poetry at Emory University. His debut collection, The Committee of Men, is forthcoming in May 2026.
Originally published:
June 11, 2025

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