What bird says uh-oh, uh-oh?
Some kind of crow.
I used to know its name.
Whole flocks of names have flown
off into the trees and settled there,
just out of earshot.
What part of the mind studies
its own lapses and eclipses,
its habit of blocking one memory
with another, or the holes it makes
in the past, then leaves unfilled?
That’s a permanent question.
If I dwell on it too long,
snow from nowhere
begins to fall in the background,
and I forget what I was asking.
I’m trying to dream up a glimpse
of what death will be like,
but I don’t let myself dream it.
what surprised you about the composition of this poem?
It’s not news that people my age (old) encounter problems with memory. As a poet, I’ve spent a lifetime studying the way the mind leaves its tracks in language, so when a trail disappears, then reappears (or not), it creates an immediate mystery I’m drawn to explore. I believe that each poem must make some kind of discovery, not simply articulate something already known or observed. The purpose of writing one, then, is to locate a question, and questions, I’ve learned, are harder to come up with than answers. What most surprised me about this poem is the way it turns its question back on the questioner, which changes its subject from memory to death.
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