After You

Sam Bailey

The path to the creek swings back and forth like

what I think is true throughout the day. The road

shoots up the hill. You said

there were no mountains here, just

hills. What’d you do that made me

change my mind?


After all those years of being careful,

we hiked to the creek, the mind of its pools

swirling. Without you was before you.

I think it matters now. Downstream

the water darkened like sleep.


When we got home and hung up our socks,

they twisted in the air, reminding me

of pheasants, bagged and drying.

Outside, a slab of snow, ugly after rain,

lay down to die before a gray row of trees.


Forgive me. I walk across a field quite similar now. 

Everything giving. My shoes sinking into the ground. 

My hope of getting anywhere

on time. The dirt here has apprehended all the small rocks. 

Blue jays insist there is no bad news.

Flat dark clouds remind me of closed eyes. As if

you came and found me, just to close your eyes.


This poem is part of a trio. Click here to read “On a Cold Night, Deciding Should I Call You” and here to read “A Year.”
Sam Bailey is a Ph.D. student in religion at Harvard University and co-editor-in-chief of Mark.
Originally published:
March 11, 2025

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